Thursday, October 7, 2010

Stop it, 1 Malaysia!

I am really tired of 1 Malaysia. I am really tired of everyone trying to outdo each other in saying how united we are, how 1 Malaysia is already embedded in our daily lives, and how we love each other so much because of mamak stalls, our shared childhoods and “teh tarik.”

Seriously, let’s cut the crap. 1 Malaysia is not a party theme where we all dress up in Malaysian flags, cut into the shape of the number one; or an essay topic where we all write about and then read out what it means to us as individuals.

Come on! Spare me the nauseous faecal matter. Some of us are older than 12 and have already left primary school. Some of us are just fed up! Stop talking about it!

What we’re not talking about and what is the real crux of the matter: we are all racists. It’s part of us, part of how we grew up. We were all taught — intentionally, most of the time; unintentionally, sometimes — that each race is different.

Flip open any school textbook and you will see the description of the typical characteristics of a Malay, Chinese and Indian, the costumes, the food. Yes, the kids from different races play together and ask inquisitively (for those lessons in grammar) about each other’s customs but at the end of the day, our race is a fundamental part of our own identity.

Seriously how many people say: “I am a Malaysian...” and stop there? Try it. It’s hard, isn’t it? The urge to continue your introduction with “I’m a Malay” or “I’m a Chinese,” etc, is just so deeply embedded that it would take tremendous effort to stop yourself from saying your race.

Everyone laughs knowingly when someone gets your race wrong. A Malay mistaken for a Chinese probably has very fair complexion. A Chinese mistaken for a Malay would be furious or embarrassed or both because the Chinese are extremely proud of their family name and heritage. (To the Chinese, Malay families are “nameless” because names are not passed down through the generations). We all know that. I know many Chinese people would be insulted to be mistaken for an Indian but let’s not even go there.

Yes, the tick box for race has to be removed from our official forms, bladiblabla. But can we remove race as a subject in our conversations? When someone describes another as “so Cina” or “so Melayu”, can you stop the conversation and reprimand the person for being racist?

When someone asks you about your culture, can you describe it without using any reference to the race of your family? When someone says “he’s a Chinese”, just say back: “He’s a Malaysian and that’s all I care.” No “buts”. I don’t care if he’s a descendant of Mao Tze Dong, as long as he has a Malaysian passport, he’s a Malaysian and that’s all that matters. Say it. Try it out on your own tongue, and see how the words roll off it…

It sounds weird, doesn’t it, because it’s hard. As well-meaning as you might be, it’s almost impossible to talk about yourself, ourselves, without referencing the race that our families come from.

And you know what? That’s not good enough. Because that means we’re not trying hard enough. Racial differentiation in our country has been a source of disunity, party politics (which we are all fed up of), and pesky social tension that serves no one (except those playing racial politics to manipulate us citizens)! So we must try harder to drop racial differentiation in all of our daily discourse.

Here’s the challenge: Don’t mention, refer to or even think about what race you are, or the person you are talking to. If you just met the person, ask for the name and where he/she is from. Full stop. Don’t even think about asking for the race, even though you can probably guess from the name.

A person’s identity is made up of lots of things, not just race. So instead of pigeon-holing the person into a race box, put him in a different box instead. Such as: Where he was born, where he lives, what’s his hobby, or the type of car he drives.

Like all bad habits, it’s much easier to get rid of the old habit if you have a new one to replace it with.

See how long you can go without referring to a person’s race. A day? Two days? Two weeks? Two months? Only when you can go about your daily life, interacting with all your family and friends without referring to anyone by their race, at all, can you say you are truly living the 1 Malaysia life.

So, stop talking about it. Please. Just live it.

source: http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/breakingviews/article/stop-it-1-malaysia-mooreyameen-mohamad/
ps. try look at those comments by others too..

Let's be realistic! We will never be able to get away from this issue. Not now, not by 2020 or beyond. Deal with it!

Why put on a new coat of paint and call it 1Malaysia when the political parties are fishing for votes right before an election. After all the dusts have settled down post election...we are back to the same, Malay, Chinese, Indian and lain lain.

A leopard will never lose its stripes. Don't waste time. Be productive and channel your energy to make a decent living for yourself and your family, unless you are in the PR department looking to do a make over for the country.

Friday, August 20, 2010

每天讀一遍,不久你就會變!

  1. 別低估任何人。
  2. 你沒那麼多觀眾,別那麼累。
  3. 溫和對人對事。不要隨意發脾氣,誰都不欠你的。
  4. 現在很痛苦,等過陣子回頭看看,會發現其實那都不算事。
  5. 和對自己有惡意的人絕交。人有絕交,才有至交。
  6. 學會寬容傷害自己的人,因為他們很可憐,各人都有自己的難處,大家都不容易。
  7. 學會放棄,拽的越緊,痛苦的是自己。
  8. 低調,取捨間,必有得失。
  9. 不要試圖給自己找任何借口,錯誤面前沒人愛聽那些借口。
  10. 慎言,獨立,學會妥協的同時,也要堅持自己最基本的原則。
  11. 付出並不一定有結果。堅持可能會導致失去更多。
  12. 過去的事情可以不忘記,但一定要放下。
  13. 活得輕松,任何事都作一個最好的打算和最壞的打算。
  14. 做一個簡單的人,踏實而務實。不沉溺幻想。
  15. 不說謊話,因為總有被拆穿的一天。
  16. 別人光鮮的背後或者有著太多不為人知的痛苦。
  17. 盡量充實自己。不要停止學習。不管學習什麼,語言,廚藝,各種技能。
  18. 注意自己的修養,你就是孩子的第一位老師。
  19. 孝順父母。不只是嘴上說說,即使多打幾個電話也是很好的。
  20. 愛父母,因為他們給了你生命,同時也是愛你愛的最無私的人。
  21. 偶爾也要現實和虛偽一點,因為不那樣做的話,很難混。
  22. 收斂自己的脾氣,偶爾要刻意沉默,因為沖動會做下讓自己無法挽回的事情。
  23. 無論什麼時候,做什麼事情,要思考。
  24. 永遠不要給背叛過自己的朋友第二次的背叛的機會。
  25. 無論是誰,都有自己的限度。特別是信任。
  26. 懂得傾聽別人的忠告。
  27. 別人說的記在腦袋裡,而自己的,則放在心裡。
  28. 盡量不要講同事朋友的八卦。
  29. 信佛,信因果,在真正的因果面前,人的力量是微不足道的。
  30. 坦然接受生活給你的饋贈吧,不管是好的還是壞的。
  31. 真正了解無常的含義,當你痛苦時,你要想這痛苦不是永恆的,當你快樂時,你要想這快樂也不是永恆的。
  32. 要快樂,要開朗,要堅韌,要溫暖,對人要真誠。
  33. 空虛無聊的時候就讀書,但一定得有自己的生活目標和計劃。
  34. 對人性的弱點有清醒的認識,但要相信真誠的愛情,對愛情永遠懷有單純的向往。
  35. 不要太過依賴除自己以外的人,因為只有自己不會拋棄自己。
  36. 永遠對生活充滿希望,對於困境與磨難,微笑面對。
  37. 多看書,看好書。
  38. 少吃點,吃好的。
  39. 古龍說過,愛笑的女孩子,運氣不會太差。
  40. 多交朋友,交好的朋友。女人一定要有閨密。
  41. 請記得,好朋友的定義是:你混的好,她打心眼裡為你開心;你混的不好,她由衷的為你著急。
  42. 要有夢想,即使遙遠。
  43. 努力愛一個人。付出,不一定會有收獲;不付出,卻一定不會有收獲,不要奢望出現奇跡。
  44. 承諾是一件美好的事情,但美好的東西往往不會變為現實。
  45. 每個人都有自己鮮明的主張和個性,不要識途去改變他人,同樣,也不要被他人所改變。改了,就不是自己了。
  46. 沒有十全十美的東西,沒有十全十美的人,關鍵是清楚到底想要什麼。得到想要的,肯定會失去另外一部分。如果什麼都想要,只會什麼都得不到。
  47. 這個世界最脆弱的是生命,身體健康,很重要。
  48. 老天爺對每個人都是公平的。
  49. 不要試圖控制別人,不要要求別人理解你。
  50. 活在當下,別在懷念過去或者憧憬未來中浪費掉你現在的生活。
  51. 不要忘本,任何時候,任何事情。
  52. 要誠懇,要坦然,要慷慨,要寬容,要有平常心。
  53. 學會忘記, 善忘是一件好事。
  54. 要樂觀,要積極,多笑,多照鏡子。
  55. 相信他說的話,但不要當真。
  56. 凡事多長心眼。
  57. 不要自作聰明。
  58. 做自己的決定。然後准備好承擔後果。從一開始就提醒自己,世上沒有後悔藥吃。
  59. 自己不喜歡的人,可以報之以沉默微笑;自己喜歡的人,那就隨便怎麼樣了,因為你的喜愛會擋也擋不住地流露出來。
  60. 相信因果報應!相信輪迴!
  61. 要學會忍耐與堅持!
  62. 這個世界上沒有真正的愛情……時間可以沖淡一切。
  63. 不要做刺猬 能不與人結仇就不與人結仇,誰也不跟誰一輩子,有些事情沒必要記在心上。
  64. 有時要學會聽取身邊人的意見,更多時候這樣才不會讓自己受到傷害。
  65. 忘記過去才能有新的開始。
  66. 這個世界很不公平。
  67. 不要太依賴朋友,人性基本都有惡的一面。
  68. 愛情很美好,相信愛情。如果連愛情都不相信那人生豈不太苦了?
  69. 想得到一樣一定會失去另一件東西。
  70. 痛苦讓人成長,是你進步的一個機會,一個挑戰。別害怕痛苦的事情,它有另一面積極的作用。
  71. 人就是孤獨的,緩解它帶來的痛苦的唯一方式就是平靜的接受它。
  72. 沒有經歷過的,永遠不能理解這些道理,但聽聽也是好的。
  73. 可以不美麗,可以不可愛,可以不溫柔,但是一定要誠實和善良。
  74. 喜愛一切美好的事物,贊美並享受它們所帶來的美好。
  75. 當困難來臨時,用微笑去面對,用智慧去解決。
  76. 要勇於承認自己所犯的錯誤,並承擔其帶來的責任。
  77. 愛家人,愛朋友,愛伴侶,愛孩子,然而,要真正為自己活。
  78. 永遠不要為已發生的和未發生的事憂慮。已經發生既成事實憂慮也於事無補,未發生的憑主觀臆測,無法推斷事情的走向,徒增煩惱而已。
  79. 不要老在別人面前傾訴你的困境袒露你的脆弱。
  80. 不要想著依靠別人,要有目標有追求,這與年齡無關。
  81. 做一個簡單的人,踏實而務實。不沉溺幻想。不庸人自擾。
  82. 學會思考,頭腦清晰,明白自己的渺小,切忌自我陶醉。炮打出頭鳥,凡事不要強出頭,因為並沒有想象中的強!
  83. 每個人都是獨立的個體,真的沒有誰離開誰就活不下去!
  84. 不要太高估自己在集體中的力量,因為當你選擇離開時,就會發現即使沒有你,太陽照常升起!
  85. 社會是有等級的,很多事不公平。別抱怨,因為沒有用。

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Teoh's last note - why only 10 months later?

There’s a very good reason why the police investigator ‘found’ a note, allegedly a suicide note as asserted by our remarkable world renowned Attorney General (AG), two months after Teoh’s mysterious death on the eve of his wedding when he had just a short while prior to his interrogation by MACC and subsequent death, phoned his best man to remind the latter of the important event the following day.

Strange as it may seem, that MACC had correctly claimed Teoh committed suicide immediately following the poor man’s death, two months BEFORE the suicide note ('suicide' as alleged by the AG) was fantastically discovered from Teoh’s sling bag, probably from a very secret compartment hitherto unbeknownst to police, MACC and even Dan Brown or for that matter, RPK.

We were aware that there had been accusations by MACC and police that Teoh revealed the corruption of his boss, Selangor DAP chief Ean Yong Hian Wah to the MACC, an action apparently so stressful that Teoh forgot about his wedding in order to seek relief in the Netherworld.

And we know that immediately after his death, his belongings, laptop and underwear were all diligently, scrupulously and carefully sifted for evidence of the DAP’s wrongdoings, though (perhaps due to the secret compartment in his bag) nothing incriminating was found.

But more significant than the wondrous timely discovery of a suicide note ('suicide' according to the AG) two months after Teoh’s had purportedly committed suicide (according to the AG) was the AG withholding such an important piece of evidence from the coroner’s court until now, 10 months after it was found.

The AG claimed he wanted to do the job for the coroner, namely in proving the authenticity of the note. Don't we just love the AG for such diligence, always so helpful, so thoughtful, so law abiding that surely we cannot help but scream, screech and shriek out of pride for our No 1 Law Officer. He deserves the Nobel Prize for Chemistry!

10 months after its discovery! Of course we all know that time is important and necessary to ‘prepare’ proper evidence – ask Colin Powell about the importance of preparation when he as US Secretary of State presented ‘evidence’ of Saddam Hussein’s illicit and dangerous WMD programs to the UN Security Council. He (Gani Patail, not f* Powell) deserves the Nobel Prize for Literature!

Then more gratitude would be due to some for the discovery of this vital piece of now-authenticated (by the wonderful AG) piece of evidence – it had been none other than UMNO Senator Ezam who alerted the authorities to it; he heard it from pro UMNO blogs – it’s just marvelous that UMNO bloggers and Senator Ezam had chipped in to support discovery of evidence even before the coroner’s court and the lawyer for the Teoh’s family had known about it. These are Towering Malaysians.

But in the midst fo accolades and gratitude expressed, I do have a complaint against the journalists who AGAIN misquoted that wonderful man, Mr Abdul Gani Patail, the world renowned Malaysian AG. They incorrectly quoted him saying he was briefed by the investigation officer (IO) that he (Ahmad Nazri the IO) conducted a thorough search after being advised by a psychiatrist that, ordinarily, a note would be left in a suicide case.

There’s one observation and one error in that quote:

Observation – “… ordinarily, a note would be left in a suicide case.”

I cannot help but applaud the incredibly unerring accuracy and prescience of the IO and psychiatrist that Teoh’s death was a ‘suicide case’, an important advice which then motivated the IO to search more vigorously for a note which would ‘ordinarily’ be left behind to help police investigation, and indeed it had been such valuable advice that stimulated the IO into (I presume) discovering the secret compartment in Teoh’s sling bag which brought forth the note, alleged by the AG as a suicide note.

The note apparently reflected Teoh’s grief for revealing his boss’ naughtiness to the MACC (as correctly claimed by the MACC one year ago – they have been so accurate that I am going to see them for Empat Ekor forecast) though I am still puzzled why the MACC haven't been all over Ean Yong Hian Wah to finish him off – maybe the MACC officers are compassionate people? Well, they may deserve nomination for the Nobel Prize for Peace!

Noted Error/Misquote – “…after being advised by a psychiatrist that, ordinarily, a note would be left …”

The AG didn’t say ‘psychiatrist’ but ‘psychic’. Yes, the IO was advised by a psychic that the late Teoh Beng Hock had left a note in his sling bag for them, two months after he was interred. Bloody journalists should get their facts right and stop misquoting our wonderful AG.

Now what was it I said in my initial sentence in this post?

Oh yes, “There’s a very good reason why police investigator ‘found’ a note, allegedly a suicide note as asserted by our remarkable world renowned Attorney General (AG), two months after Teoh’s mysterious death …” and why the AG had hung on to it for ten months.

We have to blame Thai pathologist Dr Pornthip Rojanasunand who is due to present her expert testimony this month, that Teoh Beng Hock was subjected to strangulation prior to his death fall.

All this psychic stuff wouldn’t have been necessary if that Thai woman wasn’t coming or wasn't so expertly and fearlessly truthful.

original link: http://ktemoc.blogspot.com/2010/08/teohs-last-note-why-only-10-months.html

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Plastic bottle caps – Re-use Them!

This is a great idea to share. Good for us and the environment too.

How to seal a bag and make it air-tight!


Cut up a disposable water bottle and keep the neck and top, as in photo.

Insert the plastic bag through the neck and screw the top to seal.


The bottle is made to be air-tight, such that water will not leak. The secret lies with the top and screw!

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Paying as a Malaysian

What do I get for paying toll everyday?

Now I have to pay an extra RM50 for each credit card. For what?


Extra GST (goods and services tax). Again, how does that benefit me?

Look at the long list:

I have to pay for security guards because the police are hopeless.

I have to install filters because the water supply is dirty.

I have to watch satellite tv because the government broadcasts crap.

Many kids have to go for tuition or to private schools because the government schools are bad.

We have to pay IPPs (independent power providers) because the government cannot provide consistent electricity.

We have to pay Indah Water to clean up the sewers.

We have to pay tax on foreign cars because Mahathir wants to keep his dying local car industry alive. ON top of it APs cost bcoz of his cronies.

Most have to drive because the government cannot provide good public transport.

We have to pay to sustain the government's affirmative action policies.

We have to pay for private health care because the public hospitals are crowded .

All in all, we have to pay a PREMIUM to stay in this country!

WORST WE HAVE TO LISTEN TO THE CONTINOUS THREATENING OF ANOTHER MAY 13 IF WE DON'T FALL IN LINE TO THEIR WISHES.


1Malaysia Boleh!!!

DAMN!!!!!

Monday, August 2, 2010

Nurse reveals the top 5 regrets people make on their deathbed

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By Bronnie Ware (who worked for years nursing the dying)

1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people have had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made. It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it.

2. I wish I didn't work so hard.
This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children's youth and their partner's companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence. By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.
Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result. We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly,in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved.Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.

It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip.But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end. That is all that remains in the final weeks,love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.
This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called 'comfort' of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have sillyness in their life again.
When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind. How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again,long before you are dying.

I first read this in the Observer August 2010 but have since found a link to the post on her website: http://www.inspirationandchai.com/Regrets-of-the-Dying.html

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

马来西亚的华人,是个怎么样的存在?

第一、尴尬的存在

场景1
当我刚到中国时,人们问我的第一个问题总是:“你的汉语怎么说得那么好啊?”紧接着“来到中国多说年了?”、“难道是从小学汉语吗?”

场景2
当时我和中文系的辩论队一起看01年的国际大专辩论赛决赛,马来亚大学的三辩提到“日本军在南京大屠杀凌虐我中华妇女”,有位同学问我 “你们也提中华妇女吗?”

从我到中国以来,以上的情况遇上了无数遍,于是我很早就想写一篇文章来告诉大家:马来西亚的华人是一个什么样的存在。这个题目很大,我只能从我切身的体会和感受来写这篇文章。

缘起
先用一个大家都熟悉的历史背景来做开场白。1840以来,中国进入了一个动乱的时期。一方面,好些中国人想往外逃窜;另一方面,西方列强想捉苦力到东南亚 地区为他们服务。于是,大量的中国人(尤其是福建、广东一带)就散布到东南亚各个地区,其中就包括了马来西亚。

尴尬的存在
当人家问我“你的汉语怎么说得那么好啊?”这么一个简单的问题时,我还真觉得这不是一句话就能解释的问题。最简单的回答就是:“因为我祖先是中国人”,但是有人又会问:“那么为什么好多印尼人就不会说汉语了呢?”问题的复杂之处就在这里。

从 迁居到马来西亚,我们的先贤就特别重视中文的教育,通过私塾、宗祠等单位教授三字经、四书五经等教材,后来随着中国教育体制的改革而改革。这个时期,我 们的祖先基本上还是以中国人自居,黄花岗七十二烈士就有二十九人是华侨、抗日战争时期全体华侨出钱出力、著名的华侨陈嘉庚创办厦大、集美大学。。。。。。 这样的事情不胜枚举。

后来,随着居住马来西亚日久,我们的命运渐渐在这片土地上生了根。从马来西亚(大马)方面来 看,我们开始更多地关注大马的政治,与马来族、印度族联手争取 从英国的殖民统治中独立。从中国方面来看,周恩来总理提出:华侨应在其居住地生根发芽。但是,不变的是:我们始终坚持自己的母语教育。

在 印尼,由于当地华侨没有组成统一的阵线,于是他们不能拥有中文名字、不能庆祝农历新年;在中国人普遍认为完好地传承了中华文化的新加坡,李光耀总理主动 地消灭了中文教育,关闭了新加坡唯一以中文为教学媒介的南洋大学,全体人民学习英文,于是目前多数新加坡人的母语是英语。如今,随着中国的崛起,中文的 “经济”价值日益提高,许多东南亚国家才掀起了“汉语热”。唯一的例外是马来西亚,因为我们的先贤从头到尾就没有以“经济”作为考量,而是从“民族文化” 出发。

那么,难道马来西亚就没有遭遇当地政府的阻挠吗?有!而且很大!马来西亚教育终极的目标是:以马来语为唯 一的教学媒介语,换言之,华语、淡米尔语的中小学 迟早都得消灭。60年代,大马政府规定:只有以马来语为教学媒介语的学校才能获得政府的津贴,于是许多中文中学纷纷改制,变为政府中学。这时,我们的先 贤,以林连玉先生为代表,明确地提出:学习母语是每个民族的天赋人权,即使不要一分钱的津贴,我们也要办独立中学!

于 是,马来西亚的华文教育保留了下来,华小以及民办的独立中学、学院形成完整的中文教育的体系,甚至创立了“全马来西亚独立中学统一考试”,受全球各高校 承认(除了马来西亚的大学),我们基本上就是以这张文凭为基础考进北大的。在这个过程中,多少先贤抛头颅、洒热血,林连玉先生被褫夺公民权、好多人被大马 政府关押、无数的民众以自己的血汗钱支持独立中学。

但是,来到中国,没有人知道这一切。不止中国,我相信全世界的人都不知道这一切,不知道被我们称为“族魂”的林连玉,不知道马来西亚的华人用血、汗和泪水 来争取母语教育的权利。于是,中国的同学反过来问我们:“为什么你们会说汉语?”时,我真觉得这是巨大的讽刺。

尤 其,当中国同学问起我:“为什么你们也说‘中华妇女’?”时------尽管不理智------我还是立时火了:“为什么日军侵袭时,马来西亚的华人要 出钱出力?为什么同一年发生缅甸风灾和四川大地震时,我们华人对后者的捐款额要远远大于前者,我们难道就没有资格称自己为‘中华民族’吗?”

当 我来到北大的图书馆文学图书时,看着满目的“美国文学”、“印度文学”。。。。。。当我看到“新加坡文学”,而没看到“马来西亚文学”时,我更感到十分 凄凉,以至于讽刺。我们浴血抗战,创建了一套完整的中文教育体系,有完整的“马华文学”,而这一切在中华文化的发源地------中国是得不到承认的。反 倒是曾经废除过南大的新加坡,由于其更为强大的国势,反而被认为是在海外完整地传承了中华文化的国家。

“尴尬”之处就在于此:努力地捍卫中华文化,不为马来西亚政府承认,亦不为世人所知,里外不是人。这就是马来西亚华人第一种存在:尴尬的存在。


第二、独立的存在

独立的存在,另一个说法是孤立的存在。“马来西亚华人”这个词儿意味着:我们是马来西亚人,但不是马来人(中国朋友最大的误会~囧);我们是华人,但不是中国人。于是,一种特殊的群体和文化产生了,独立于世界之林。

我 们跟其他马来西亚人(例如马来人、印度人)的差别很明显,黄皮肤在一片黑色的人海之中额外显眼,不同的语言、不同的文化。但是,在日常生活中我们相处得 十分融洽-------马来人其实真的是很好相处的,什么种族冲突全是政府搞出来的-------整个群体都受到马来族极大的影响,这就铸成了我们好多的 共同点,而与他们的这些共同点恰恰就是我们和中国人的相异之处。

最明显的差异就是口头表达。首先是口音,我朋友总 说:“看你的时候一点都不像外国人,但你一说话我们就马上知道了。”在辩论赛场上时,我的一口马来腔更是 显得极为突兀。所谓马来西亚口音,大概就是广东腔+福建腔,翘舌少、轻声较少(个人认为)、没有儿化、语调趋平。其次是词汇,以中文词汇为主体,再加上各 种方言、马来语、英语的词汇,各种语气词“啦”、“咯”、“哄”层出不穷。大家有兴趣的话,可以去百度打“马来西亚VS中国”,马上就能找到许多具体的例 子。

但是,我以为:更深层的差距不在嘴巴,而在脑子里。有一次,中文系的徐艺峰师兄领着我们留学生辩论队讨论一个 辩题,他最感叹的就是:“如果是跟中国学生讨 论,第三个衡量标准一定是‘何者更有利于社会主义的建设’。”看看中国同学的课就知道,什么思修、毛概、邓小平思想、军事理论,这些似乎都离我们的生活很 远很远。冷战时期资本主义阵营和社会主义阵营的分家就决定了我们意识形态上的不同。

撇开这个问题不谈,即使同样都 继承了中华文化,两地的继承也是有所不同的。在这里,大部分的人都信仰“无神论”。但是,我们那里好多人都还信仰观十八罗 汉、观音娘娘、关公、济公、齐天大圣等,不一而足。不止大量的神庙,我们还保留了大量的宗祠、会馆,并且还在华人社区发挥着一定的作用。由于我对中国的现 代化进程还算有一定的了解,以上这些还不足以让我惊讶,真正让我吃惊的是中国风气的开放。校内校外,情侣相拥亲吻的情况无所不在,这还真不是我想象中的中 国。当然,我们那里也有很开放的人,但是可以肯定的是:马来西亚的华人普遍上要比中国人保守得多(嗯~至少跟我的家乡相比)。

此 外,许多大马华人一致公认的是:中国学生真的很多“学术牛人”,大体上比我们那儿的人要勤劳的多。中国人多竞争大,我所认识的每位同学一个个都是从高考 的腥风血雨中杀出来的英雄豪杰,他们那股永不言倦的冲劲着实让我们折服。相较而言,马来西亚人则比较慵懒,更倾向于做自己喜欢的事、享受自己的人生。因 此,我们玩起来比较放浪形骸,比较不顾形象,大声吵、大声笑、大声闹。

既不是马来人,也不是中国人,我们仿佛就是另 一种程度上的混血儿,所以或许我们有点孤单。但是,这或许就是我们独特的优势:既传承了悠久的中华文化,又成 长在一个相对宽松自由的舆论环境,想法更自由、更多元。所以,即使我们这个群体在世界上似乎很孤立,但如果让我有机会选择,我仍然愿意出生在马来西亚,当 马来西亚的华人。


第三、悲壮的存在

“宝剑锋自磨砺出,梅花香自苦寒来”,这一句俗语在马来西亚人身上得到绝佳的体现。在过去,马来人、华人、印度人曾经联手争取了国家的独立;但是,随着马 来人逐渐独掌大权(再注:对马来人的抨击仅限政治人物),华人、印度人的地位也日渐衰弱。首先,马来语成了唯一的官方语言。再来,马来西亚教育的最终目标 定为:“使马来语成为唯一的教学媒介语”。

但是,最大的转折点是六、七十年代的“五·一三事件”。由于华人比较刻 苦耐劳,比其他的民族来得富有,无形中造成了民族间的矛盾。出于权力斗争的目的,政 治人物鼓动马来人屠杀华人。于是,第二任首相敦拉萨借此宣布国家进入“紧急状态”,顺势上台,颁布了一系列不平等的法令。在经济上,每家公司都至少要雇用 30%的土著(其实就是马来人和其他极少部分的少数民族);在教育上,大学也实施固打制,要保留一定的份额给土著。此外,对中文教育的打压更是变本加厉, 影响力最大的就是改制事件,即不以马来语为主要教学媒介语的政府中学都领不到政府一分钱的津贴。

打压归打压,但是 马来西亚华人依然在暴风雨中茁壮成长。如第一篇所述,我们发展出了一套完整的中文教育,各领域人才辈出。大家熟知的梁静茹、曹格、光亮皆 是马来西亚华人;大家现在人手一支的U盘是马来西亚的潘建忠发明的;在华语辩论界上,马来西亚以其犀利的辩风在世界上占有一席之地;如今,马来西亚的十大 首富中也大部分是华人。

但是,从这里我们可以看到一些很可悲的现实。大马华人自己创办的独立中学培养了无数英才那 又怎样?全世界大部分高等学府都承认我们的统考文凭时,唯有马来 西亚政府不承认!马来亚大学在辩坛创出赫赫威名那又怎样?在政府控制下的马来亚大学还曾经试图禁止马大的辩手参赛!梁静茹、潘建忠等辈就更加可悲了,许多 人都以为他们是台湾人!潘建忠自己就说过:“如果我留在马来西亚,不可能会有今天的成就。”因为在马来西亚,华人发展的空间有限,报国无门又无法自我实 现,不出国发展还能怎样?

于是,马来西亚的华人成长是成长了,可是那跟政府什么毛关系都没有。因为我们政府很慷 慨,在全世界都在争夺人才时,我们政府眼看马来西亚出现人才外流的滚 滚洪流仍然可以视而不见!在马来西亚大力提倡向外吸纳人才时,去看看,有多少马来西亚的人才在新加坡工作!有一次,我们国家的首相到新加坡访问,探访一间 医院时,竟然有一半以上的人用马来语跟他致敬!这是何等的讽刺!

我原本把第三篇命名为“令人骄傲的存在”,可是后 来改成了“悲壮”。的确,我们有很傲人的成就。可是,在我们有心报效祖国时,却只能被不公平的政策拒之国 门。马来西亚那么一块宝地,没有天灾、资源丰富、文化多样,又居于世界要冲,如果真的有英明的政府,摇身变为世界强国绝非难事!反观新加坡,没有什么自然 资源,又是弹丸之地,可是,现在我们只有眼睁睁看着自己的国家成了新加坡的腹地,眼看着从马来西亚分离出去的新加坡一天比一天强大!这种感觉真的很复杂, 真的很难以言喻!

谓之“悲壮”,我想应该甚为贴切。


后记

可能很多人很意外,我从小时候开始就自认为自己是个中国人。从小读的书就是《西游记》、《水浒传》、《三国演义》、《杨家将》、《岳飞传》。影响我一生最 大的一套书大概就是一套三十本的中国历史漫画图集。在我小小脑海中,出现的总是滚滚的黄土和快马飞驰的勇将。长大了一点,看过《中国人史纲》、《中国寓 言》,偶尔会翻翻《唐诗三百首》。

那时,我真的自认为我是中国人,我的文化之根和这里的人是联系在一起的。

于 是,我的梦想就是回归中国。英文我认为不重要,因为我要去中国,从没认真学;马文我更是碰都不碰,甚至常以考不好马来文自嘲。可以说,我很偏执。我只有 认为有必要的东西我才会认真去学。到了高二,我的国际视野才宽广到足以让我理解英文的重要性,我从那时开始才急起直追,算是打下了一定的基础,但是绝没到 “好”的程度。但是,马来文,我始终不愿意去学习,在统考中马文拿了惨兮兮的“B6”还常拿去说嘴。

去年9月, 我来到了中国,就读于中国最好的大学,学习着自己最想念的中文系,一切看起来都像梦想成真。但是,来到了这里,我才第一次深刻地体会到:我是马 来西亚人。我才第一次感觉到:我有可能是爱国的。在祖国成长的每一部分,不管是口音、思维等,都在我的生命里留下不可磨灭的痕迹。即使我可能算是马来西亚 里最中国的一小撮人,即使我跟很多中国同学相处得不错,但是我仍然能深刻地体会到我们的不同之处。不管怎么样,在中国,只要是外国人,就真的只是外国人。

那 么我到底该何去何从?这是我一整个学期都在思考的问题。在迷茫中,在摸索中,我才会写出上面的三篇文章,试图找到马来西亚华人的定位,试图找到自己的定 位,然后决定自己以后要到哪里发展。我个人认为,不管是留在中国还是去到西方,就注定了只能收到单方面的信息,很难认清这个世界的真相。此外,留在中国, 或许就只能是成为一个尴尬、孤立的个体。去到西方国家,那更是彻底地孤立,存活在一堆思维截然不同的陌生人之中,甚至还可能面临他们的排斥。

可 能,我仍然会回去马来西亚,即使我们目前仍然要活在打压之中,即使要存活在一个难以实现自我的空间。但是,我或许可以用手中的一票继续给国阵施加那千万 分之一的压力,做自己想做的事,做一个开心的人。即使薪水不高,即使物质生活不丰裕,即使很难真正地实现自我,但是只要能在自己最熟悉的家乡、跟喜欢的人 在一起,幸福或许就那么简单不是吗?


满纸荒唐言,
一把辛酸泪;
都云作者痴,
谁解其中味?


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http://blog.sina.com.cn/s/blog_69b3fb290100l1k8.html

【请大家转载】在校内发了第一篇过后,真没想到校内影响力那么大,能传得那么广。于是,我突然有一个想法,想有意识地运用校内的这种影响力,让大家更好地 认识马来西亚华人这个群体。当然,以下只是我个人的想法,只代表我个人的立场。我的朋友,请帮忙转载,当帮我一个忙;大马同胞,也请帮忙转载;不认识的朋 友,如果你觉得这篇文章稍有可取之处,也请帮忙转载~谢谢大家啊!